I am a Wapsi girl!
I’ve always found it hard to figure out what I wanted to do.
Sure, I have my art, yes I am rather good at it or so I’ve been told.
Everyone around me pressured me into becoming a “true artist” but what does that mean? My father never had the chance to be one so I guess
I’ll just go to this designer college! I had to or else I couldn’t get into the Art School I had to go to, eventually.
I grew up rather isolated and had trouble making friends, kids picked on me cause I was fat. I focused all my free time on drawing.
It felt like it was the only thing that defined me, made me special. And at the same time I felt lonely, ugly, without meaning.
My parents were too busy fighting so I moved out very young, by the time they divorced I was finally ready to head towards Art school.
As I moved places for the third time within the same school year, I lost my will to study and dropped out.
And what a relief that was! .. I sought the least challenging job (a supermarket) and slacked there for quite some time, boy, was my family disappointed!
I learned a lot of vital things at this job, how to act around strangers, how to small-talk and generally be less shy. I managed to become a lot better at taking other peoples shit.
After 2 years I finally gathered enough peace to seek a therapist and learned yet another thing:
There is nothing wrong with me! I am a normal, healthy functioning person in society, and there is nothing wrong with me working a minimum waged job!
When the last session was over I realized that no therapist in the world was going to tell me what to do, It’s all me and my own strength.
I decided to lead a healthier life and lost a lot of weight, I learned I had a lot more discipline than I thought I had.
In the supermarket I learned to love and adore children and now I’ve picked up a completely different study: Pedagogy
I’ve always wanted to use my talents for something educational, being able to use my creativity to teach and entertain kids/people.
I feel whole now.
(now all I still need is a boyfriend!)