Rosalie Lub
I am a Wapsi girl!
I’ve always found it hard to figure out what I wanted to do.
Sure, I have my art, yes I am rather good at it or so I’ve been told.
Everyone around me pressured me into becoming a “true artist” but what does that mean? My father never had the chance to be one so I guess
I’ll just go to this designer college! I had to or else I couldn’t get into the Art School I had to go to, eventually.
I grew up rather isolated and had trouble making friends, kids picked on me cause I was fat. I focused all my free time on drawing.
It felt like it was the only thing that defined me, made me special. And at the same time I felt lonely, ugly, without meaning.
My parents were too busy fighting so I moved out very young, by the time they divorced I was finally ready to head towards Art school.
As I moved places for the third time within the same school year, I lost my will to study and dropped out.
And what a relief that was! .. I sought the least challenging job (a supermarket) and slacked there for quite some time, boy, was my family disappointed!
I learned a lot of vital things at this job, how to act around strangers, how to small-talk and generally be less shy. I managed to become a lot better at taking other peoples shit.
After 2 years I finally gathered enough peace to seek a therapist and learned yet another thing:
There is nothing wrong with me! I am a normal, healthy functioning person in society, and there is nothing wrong with me working a minimum waged job!
When the last session was over I realized that no therapist in the world was going to tell me what to do, It’s all me and my own strength.
I decided to lead a healthier life and lost a lot of weight, I learned I had a lot more discipline than I thought I had.
In the supermarket I learned to love and adore children and now I’ve picked up a completely different study: Pedagogy
I’ve always wanted to use my talents for something educational, being able to use my creativity to teach and entertain kids/people.
I feel whole now.
(now all I still need is a boyfriend!)
– Rosalie
Excellent addition. Welcome to the Wapsi girls. Life is all about finding our own path, and others always just seem to want to steer us either down the same path that made them unhappy or to take the path they didn’t choose. Congratulations for taking your own path and following your desires. Education is a very admirable path. Much respect for that choice. As for the boyfriend, I would offer myself, but being overseas for the next few years would not make a relationship easy. :). You will find one, don’t worry.